我聽了以後很有感觸。想是大概我自己的背景關系，從內地來，被人標籤著新移民甚麼的，現在大概有多少euphemism， 管你叫窮，大抵還是叫你叫基層來著，不可拆穿頭頂的一片太平。
中國人嘛…凡事留一線，日後好相見！應謹記謹記！
在小學中學，我大抵是一隻井中蛙，我的世界就僅僅是一個黃大仙。大學，五光十色，精彩。我做了一個義工計劃，到深水埗去幫新到埗的小孩子補習。我想起自己的出身，突然感到一點可恥的guilty gratefulness. 慶幸自己雖然有大概的經歷，可是家庭還不至於潦倒如此，社會還是給予了大大小小的機會我向上爬。我又想起我補過習的有錢小孩，以及我朋輩依稀間有多少個是超級富豪。我想起他們對錢的那種模糊概念，想起那點洋洋的朝氣，想起他們擔心GCSE很難的童稚。我終於明白，一樣米養百樣人這句話裡頭，隱隱埋著了那點荒涼。荒涼，悲哀，因為我不願揭穿那個truth給你，我願你一世懵懂下去，快樂的無知。
來到花旗，更精彩。我像是big fish 裡頭那個可愛papa，I jump out from a small pond as a big fish, to become a small fish in a big pond, to eventually a tiny tweeny one in the ocean. 我看了這兒的學生，看懂了甚麼是有錢中的有錢。有些人比我多了的，不是聰慧，而是見識。重要嗎，你問？
是的，那是他媽的重要。投行兩樣skills 都需要，這個世界需要絕頂聰明，亦需要粉飾太平。ibankers那份自我熏陶的自信，無人能及，daisy wong 說得不無道理，你不把自己身體力行地體現為世界第一，有誰會幾千萬咁送俾你！
所以說，smart不一定，exposure 卻是放洋的比本地學生所優越的。可是這不是鐵一般的道理，憑藉大學的經驗，我覺得有人還是可以make their way through 的，只是，難一點兒。
我不同意仇富，因為這樣做就等於一開始已經覺得自己inferior, 而且已經將問題frame in the way that rich people want you to frame. 你既然唔同意遊戲規則，又要玩落去，玩既時候仲要鬧個game 點差點差，你話， in the first place, 點解你要將個 game interpret in that way?
everyone is different. that's what I learn in America. Do your own job. And you don't need to feel inferior, just because you are not as good as the guy next to you at the start. because if you work hard, you can catch up. 我看了窮富翁大作戰，很不明白，點解要將問應題寫成 " poor people cannot move upward socially." 我覺得要加點附註，是 "if they don't study hard". Every part in the world is the same. I don't like this social phenomenon but I think it's gonna stay here for a while. as the society moves to more service-based, this wealth gap is gonna enlarge exponentially. the government's job is not to say "see this is happening", their job is to make people face this reality while taking less pain from it. that's why I played the game and obeyed the rule. 無錯你係好慘，正如田北辰講，社會很draconian 地 punish those who do not study well. 無學識，很慘。我很慶幸，媽媽對我很嚴，因為她的嚴厲，社會對我很仁慈。
窮，毋庸自卑。不卑不亢。人善人欺天不欺。要出人頭地，除了讀書，也有捷徑，可是那個risk 不是人人都high 得起。我還是讀書去吧。
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